Random blurbs from me, Waylan.

MARCHing along...

     So I guess it's about time for my monthly blog. I hate that I don't use it more often. I actually started out on Tumblr, and I missed the social part of it, so I signed back up. Hopefully that will keep me in the zone of blogging more often. It's >}here{< if you want to check it out. Not a lot yet, since I have to start anew. It it won't be a lot of original content, since mostly everyone just reblogs eachother, but I'll try to be just with that.
     So the last month hasn't been the best. I had a little panic attack/breakdown. It wasn't fun, obviously. I think I've come to terms that I may have to always deal with anxiety/depression. So, I was in a dark place for a day or two. I can't imagine how people deal with stuff like this without medication. Part of the reason, I think I did breakdown finally was because I was trying to wean off of my meds. They help, but they also hinder me, I am a different person with and without them. If you haven't dealt with depression, it is a mean, nasty thing. It basically tricks your whole body into feeling like crap, not just emotionally, but physically, as well. So, it got bad, like a dark cloud was consuming me for a bit. I'm better now, but I still have moments were it tries to overcome me, and I just have to fight it and breathe it out.
     So, I plan on setting up an appointment to see a counselor/therapist about my anxiety, if nothing that to just talk it out. I also want to see about changing my meds. I feel like I can't live without them, but if I am going to have to do that, then I'm going to find ones that help, while also not making constantly crave food...yeah it's a thing, and I could tell when trying to get off of them. I would actually eat a square meal, and feel full when I was done. I hadn't felt like that in forever.

Wish me luck!

PEACE -- Way

Waylan Bolin